The NaNo curse
Dec. 4th, 2018 10:44 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
citrinesunsetI feel like NaNoWriMo might be cursed for me. I feel a little bad even joking about that, because I know, I know--it's an accountability and prioritization thing.
But the fact remains. No matter how much I water down NaNo to make it work for me, I always end up feeling like I've been less productive than I would have been if I didn't say I'm doing NaNo. I feel like I could set a goal of writing flash fiction for NaNo, and it still wouldn't happen for some reason. This year, I do have some decent excuses--real life has been a pain this month. Though, if I'm really being honest, writing in general hasn't been going great for the past few months. I struggled a bit with Trick or Treat this year even though I was really enthusiastic about my assignment and the prospect of writing treats.
This year, the NaNo casualty was my X-Men movieverse fic of doom, the 30k WIP I've been writing for the past year and told myself that I would absolutely finish during November, using NaNo as an excuse to nudge myself. This fic is also known as the Frankenfic, since I pieced together scenes haphazardly and am now trying to bring the damn thing to life.
I really do want to finish it. I feel like I need to so that I can focus on other things. I'm at that awkward point where my heart is starting to move on and my brain is losing interest. But I've put too much work into this damn thing to leave it unfinished, and I really just need to write the ending and flesh out some of the scenes in the middle. It's terrible, but at this point, I almost feel like I'd rather finish it even if it's not perfect or doesn't match my original vision as well as I'd like.
But the fact remains. No matter how much I water down NaNo to make it work for me, I always end up feeling like I've been less productive than I would have been if I didn't say I'm doing NaNo. I feel like I could set a goal of writing flash fiction for NaNo, and it still wouldn't happen for some reason. This year, I do have some decent excuses--real life has been a pain this month. Though, if I'm really being honest, writing in general hasn't been going great for the past few months. I struggled a bit with Trick or Treat this year even though I was really enthusiastic about my assignment and the prospect of writing treats.
This year, the NaNo casualty was my X-Men movieverse fic of doom, the 30k WIP I've been writing for the past year and told myself that I would absolutely finish during November, using NaNo as an excuse to nudge myself. This fic is also known as the Frankenfic, since I pieced together scenes haphazardly and am now trying to bring the damn thing to life.
I really do want to finish it. I feel like I need to so that I can focus on other things. I'm at that awkward point where my heart is starting to move on and my brain is losing interest. But I've put too much work into this damn thing to leave it unfinished, and I really just need to write the ending and flesh out some of the scenes in the middle. It's terrible, but at this point, I almost feel like I'd rather finish it even if it's not perfect or doesn't match my original vision as well as I'd like.
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Date: 2018-12-23 05:20 pm (UTC)UUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
Good luck with your fic of doom! May you find little nuggets of the original spark and may they light your way to the finish line... or something. I'm mixing my metaphors like a mofo...but you get it, yeah?
♥♥
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Date: 2019-01-06 04:47 am (UTC)Thanks! I'm determined to get it done sooner rather than later.