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citrinesunsetI didn't get any sleep last night. I was up all night finishing a take-home exam. Now, actually, to be fair, this wasn't really due to putting it off. I'd had several days to work on it, and while I could have made better use of that time, I'd gotten a fair amount done prior to yesterday. It was just a matter of finishing up. 2-3 hours worth or work, tops. Most of the time I spent awake was spent doing other, less productive things.
The real problem, of course, was that I'd gotten on a really late schedule with spring break. There was no hope of easing back into things gently.
I felt kind of guilty and bad about not getting any sleep, and once I stopped to think about that, it kind of surprised me. When I was younger, I was proud of the occasions when I stayed up all night. It was a mark of endurance. And I guess when you're young, defying the need for sleep can be pretty cool. What's different now? That I can't always get some rest later in the morning/afternoon, I guess. I was home schooled as a child. Things like staying up all night never had many practical consequences. These days, I have to go to school or work, and I know from experience that I'll be miserable at school after a while if I don't get enough sleep. But I guess there's also this idea that I've failed myself if I don't go to bed at a decent time, or complete my work in the afternoon. Maybe that's being a little hard on myself, because let's face it, while I can manage getting up at 7:30, it's really not natural for me. Of course I'm going to want to stay up late and work late. Some of it is putting stuff off, which is bad, but some of it is just my unsuitability for an early schedule.
Surprisingly, I'm still hanging in there. I did doze off on the bus. Luckily, there wasn't much risk of me missing my stop.
The real problem, of course, was that I'd gotten on a really late schedule with spring break. There was no hope of easing back into things gently.
I felt kind of guilty and bad about not getting any sleep, and once I stopped to think about that, it kind of surprised me. When I was younger, I was proud of the occasions when I stayed up all night. It was a mark of endurance. And I guess when you're young, defying the need for sleep can be pretty cool. What's different now? That I can't always get some rest later in the morning/afternoon, I guess. I was home schooled as a child. Things like staying up all night never had many practical consequences. These days, I have to go to school or work, and I know from experience that I'll be miserable at school after a while if I don't get enough sleep. But I guess there's also this idea that I've failed myself if I don't go to bed at a decent time, or complete my work in the afternoon. Maybe that's being a little hard on myself, because let's face it, while I can manage getting up at 7:30, it's really not natural for me. Of course I'm going to want to stay up late and work late. Some of it is putting stuff off, which is bad, but some of it is just my unsuitability for an early schedule.
Surprisingly, I'm still hanging in there. I did doze off on the bus. Luckily, there wasn't much risk of me missing my stop.
